Hi! So happy you’re here. Name’s Amanda, put ‘er there (It Takes Two throwback in case you’re not up on your ’90s Olsen twin movies – don’t judge me). I’m a stay at home mom of a 3 year old boy – a beautiful, wild, sweet, strong-willed boy who tests my patience daily – and wife of 5 years to a logical thinking, hard working engineer who knows how to make me laugh even when I fight it.
I’ll be the first to admit, I’m so not that mom who has it all together. Not even close. I’m an overthinking perfectionist who worries way too much and has the gray hairs to prove it. This is probably why it’s taken me this long (oh it’s been brewing in my mind for far too long) to start a blog. I wait and wait until I think maybe I finally have my stuff together, but let’s be honest, I’m never really going to have all my ducks in a row, am I? Kudos to those out there who do. But hey, this blog isn’t about hiding the crazy anyway. Nope, it’s about putting it all out there because I know I’m not alone in this, whatever “this” happens to be at the moment – whether it’s crying your eyes out at 3am because you’re just. so. tired or trying to wrangle a thrashing toddler into his clothes so you can make it out the door before noon.
The thing is, sometimes the knowledge that I’m not the only one out there is exactly what gets me through the messy times, and there are a LOT of messy times.
Another thing I’m quite sure of is that things never seem to go quite as planned when it comes to parenthood or even life in general. As far as my story goes, going into this whole “becoming a mother” thing, I had some ideas of how it would be. I knew it’d be hard, I knew there’d be sleepless nights. What I wasn’t prepared for was a labor nothing like I expected, breastfeeding fails, mom guilt, sleep deprivation pushing me to the edge, and anxiety about every little thing. Let’s just say from the get go, my plans for motherhood went awry.
Along with writing being my passion and as much of a necessity for me as breathing, my hope for this blog is that it can do for you what the words of others have done for me – offered solace, a source of inspiration and hope, or even something to laugh about when it’s been one of those days.
With that said, welcome to Motherhood Awry – a place where things don’t often go as planned, and day by day, I’m learning maybe that’s just the way God intended it.